Sometimes I’d rather see my blood than your smile

I know this is wrong, I know, I know

Searching for a way out
Paralyzed by loneliness
Taking breathes of dead air
My only hope is self-destruction

You would hope I’m safe

This depression is a sea of defaults (defaults created by myself)
and skies covered in rain and black clouds
In an empty view of all these beautiful faces (beautiful scars of my past)
and miseries I left behind

If lights were stars embedded in my heart
You could see your constellation through my eyes

Living life this way has drained my soul
All I was once is now gone

This is a distress signal named disaster

Another story to put myself asleep with
Another star to wish on all my secrets
This ignorance fills my heart, you can’t take what I already ruined
I’ll make you afraid as hell